So very sorry the Cancer Bitch is clawing at you again. She keeps doing the same to me. I wish I had some words of comfort, but hard to find them when all you feel is despair and pain.
Fuck cancer! Fuck it until there's nothing left of it but a fleeting bad memory. How dare it? I mean, HOW DARE it?! I'm here for venting, crying, silent sitting-by, bringing wanted things... xoxo
My cancer has apparently just decided decided my lung isn’t enough - now it wants my brain. I am terrified. May God be with us both...cyber hugs, only because I can’t do it personally. Praying like our lives depend on it. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
FWIW, many years ago I had a horse fall on top of me, and was permitted the briefest glimpse of the other side...a soft, grey place of ineffable peace where I knew that God was in charge and has reasons for all, whether to us looking good, bad, or seemingly indifferent - didn’t worry about my kids or anything else, peace knowing God was in charge and all had purpose whether I was able to see it or not.
But it was also given to me to know that it wasn’t yet my time, and I wasn’t permitted to stay. This was back in the early 90s. (That was when I came back, when I knew I wasn’t to be able to stay, and also knew if I didn’t hustle an EMT I had known since a small boy would see my BOOBS, and couldn’t have that!)
I learned God IS real, and IS there, and that really he just wants us to love each other as we would have Him love us. That God is God, but religion is a creation of man, and while much can be learned from it there is also much corruption.
If you get a chance to go there and will be allowed to stay, I suggest that you take it - ineffable peace, at least where I was in the “anteroom” with the presence of God.
God bless and be with you and all those you love, and may He at least make this part of your life less painful. (That’s the worst for me, too - not fear of death, but fear of the pain that comes before.) 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
I’m sorry you are going thru this. Recurrence is bad enough without spread.
If you need a liver surgeon, I can recommend mine highly as someone who was supposed to be at the end of her lifeline three years ago.
Sending you many, many healing stars in the meantime. ✨✨
So very sorry the Cancer Bitch is clawing at you again. She keeps doing the same to me. I wish I had some words of comfort, but hard to find them when all you feel is despair and pain.
Fuck cancer! Fuck it until there's nothing left of it but a fleeting bad memory. How dare it? I mean, HOW DARE it?! I'm here for venting, crying, silent sitting-by, bringing wanted things... xoxo
My cancer has apparently just decided decided my lung isn’t enough - now it wants my brain. I am terrified. May God be with us both...cyber hugs, only because I can’t do it personally. Praying like our lives depend on it. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
FWIW, many years ago I had a horse fall on top of me, and was permitted the briefest glimpse of the other side...a soft, grey place of ineffable peace where I knew that God was in charge and has reasons for all, whether to us looking good, bad, or seemingly indifferent - didn’t worry about my kids or anything else, peace knowing God was in charge and all had purpose whether I was able to see it or not.
But it was also given to me to know that it wasn’t yet my time, and I wasn’t permitted to stay. This was back in the early 90s. (That was when I came back, when I knew I wasn’t to be able to stay, and also knew if I didn’t hustle an EMT I had known since a small boy would see my BOOBS, and couldn’t have that!)
I learned God IS real, and IS there, and that really he just wants us to love each other as we would have Him love us. That God is God, but religion is a creation of man, and while much can be learned from it there is also much corruption.
If you get a chance to go there and will be allowed to stay, I suggest that you take it - ineffable peace, at least where I was in the “anteroom” with the presence of God.
God bless and be with you and all those you love, and may He at least make this part of your life less painful. (That’s the worst for me, too - not fear of death, but fear of the pain that comes before.) 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
So sorry, I understand, bad night last night for me as well. Thinking about you....