See You Be Brave

It me.

As I posted a picture on insta this morning from my chemo chair, Sara B came on my abby’s station on Apple Music. A gift. I am brave. And crying a lot. But I want to be brave so this morning I woke up and made sure to laugh. Easy, Caleb did something funny. I stayed in bed. Then I felt the scared. Cancer fucking sucks. Auntie Rach brought me a hot cup of coffee with just the right amount of milk. A gift. I gave myself a few more minutes. Then I got yelled at to get ready. Not necessary, but thank you.

(Wait hold on Beyonce in my buds. This is some good music you guys. Also I am now officially on drugs (Benadryl) that counts as a drug.)

Anyway, back to my getting ready for chemo reminisce. I got dressed. But make it brave. I put on my amulet. And my crystal bead rainbow necklace. I put on a button up. Most comfortable black joggers. No bra today, fuck that guy. Baking socks I got in Portland. Flower vans. Pink fidget bracelets. My hair is swooping. It’s remarkable and I love it today. I started the nobody wants to go to chemo song while I got ready. I guess I find it helps to sing it out. Then I cried a bunch. Then I went to chemo.

And here I am. Nobody wants to go to chemo single drops soon.

Today is a gift and I am brave. Honestly apple music abbys station is the jam today what is this song?